I haven't been keeping up with this blog. I don't have anything snappy to say. Just to get out of the house and get some sunshine.
I've been busy on Facebook, other people's blogs, Salon.com, other websites, you name it. It somehow keeps me from reflecting on my own life and writing about it. It's near the end of the year and I'm feeling tired. Time to rest, hibernate even, alternating with getting outside in the sunshine (as I mentioned already).
Don't know if I should continue this blog...there seems to be so many others out there with so much more information. Information overload. I can never know it all, be it all, have it all. All I can have is this one piece of ground here (I mean that metaphorically). Scattering myself to the four winds...is not good.
What I want in this winter season is a chance to settle in, to celebrate myself, and "be" in one place, trusting that things will come to me if they are meant to be. Without thinking I have to go out and get them (all the time). Though going out is fun ... it ultimately is distracting from what's really important in my life, what's really going on in the inside. Because I get used to living for that high, rather than living at all levels -- the "in here" experience of being who I am as well as the "out there" experience of seeing who you are and who they are and what that's about.....
This blog did start out as a vehicle for me to practice writing and putting it out there, so I could gain experience in it, so maybe one day I could write a book or something..... I am not the entertainer, though I often wish I were... I am more the thoughtful questioner, the introspective examiner of life's patterns.... I hope you, as the listener, reader, and viewer have gotten something of use from reading my blog.
We all have it in us, I believe, to reconsider the way we live our life, what our priorities are, etc. and are we making room for what's really important to us. I know I have trouble with that. I tend to do what's always been expected of me, or what my usual routine is, and sometimes it takes a Mack truck or a big change in perspective to see how chained I have been to "the way it's always been." We need others in our lives to show us that sometimes. We need time for reflection to see things that we ordinarily miss when we're caught up in the action. We need to think back about why that happened and even if we don't know why, it's good to ask ourselves about it. To start thinking about how it all relates. So we can be the one who puts our life together, and not leave it up to our parents, society, or whatever authorities that you particularly defer to.....
And then....before the sun goes down, it's time to go outside in the sunshine! See you in the new year, if I don't see you before!
